a moment in a day in a life

in our modern world where everything seems to be in a rush, specially for a corporate slave like me and many others whose every fucking minutes are gold, it is very important to have ample time to relax, free the mind, think and reflect.

everyday, i see to it that i always have quality time for myself, 15 to 30 minutes alone, reflecting about myself and thinking about almost everything that my mind could reach. whether i am at work or in my room, it is when i am alone that i can freely explore worlds that my physical body could not get into.

during these moments, i think about my loved ones i left behind in pursuit of enough fortune to give them a good life in the future. i am seriously thinking what's the feeling to finally have my own family, which i should have experienced already last year. i am also dreaming how are we 3, 5, 10 or even 25 years from now. hoping that i am making all the right decisions to be the best husband to my wife ant the best father to my kids.

i am thinking about my cheerful family back home with whom i spent all my childhood and young adolescent years. my father, mother, sister and brother, all of them i love so dearly. wishing i could turn back the hands of time where me and my siblings have no other things to do but to exhaust ourselves to sleep from playing. where we would talk about anything while waiting for the electricity power to come back to life during the power crisis of the 90's.

it is when i am alone where i think about my batchmates, whether from elementary, highschool, college and even at work. reminiscing every happy moments with them, where they are and how are they doing nowadays.

not only the friends i once knew from school or from work, but i am also thinking about my new found friends here in the blogosphere. i've met some of them and some are also working overseas like me in different parts of the globe. it seems like i have known them for years because of blogging.

all these things comes to my mind when i am peacefully alone, a few minutes each day. after my reflection, i always bow my head and asking myself the same friggin' question over and over again.

why do sometimes my shit floats, and the next day it will sink? and it varies. there are days that even the hard-like-a-titanium-steel-type shit floats and the puffy-like-a-marshmallow-and-bloated-like-a-cloud-style sinks. and sometimes it is the other way around. it's just so weird. is it because of the surface tension of the water on the toilet? or a good reason might be depending on the density of my shit that i have unloaded swiftly or forcefully.

my 30 minutes is up! my legs are cramping already. now get back to work.